HALF OF MY SOUL GONE

My eyes are wet of tears  when I open my bed room windows in the morning. As if Two little princess were still there looking at the insects in our pumpkin garden. With their little fingers they showed me  flying butterfly, dragon fly and some nice little birds...Ouggh...they are not there now...

There is a moment that I always kiss her on the forehead..there is a moment that I always sit in front of our house when she is not home yet.. Tapi semuanya sudah hilang..Hilang dengan segala ketololanku..I have just realized that they are so precious and I can't live without. I can't help getting into the bedroom, as it were the nicest place of our togetherness..

She is right that I have to learn a lot of things while she is away. I have to be able to control my ego, my selfishness..my emotion and my other bad things. Yes I would like to learn and change.

Now I am making the house by myself, just like I used to do before moving to this town. I am still wondering what changed me so much till I disappoint her and the kids...Well..I will take another chances..and we start something new again like two years ago when we live in a smaller town..

I still remember when we cooked, washed, clean the house and had meal together in a small table. When she asked me, is it delicious ? ..and I always said "yups, nice and I like it" ..but it was so salty..

And I smile when I remember she screamed when I was out of the (scary) house...I want to have it again..

I miss that moment...

Moody days

My mood serves me better in a couple of days that make me want to complete my hard work and make some nice photos..Beberapa kerjaan yang datang beberapa hari ini sangat sulit dan membutuhkan ketenangan pikiran. Otherwise, jika aku paksakan, I won't obtain the best result, but some small work accidents.

Well, I take my camera and try to make a good shoot on anything, my two nice little children, grasshopper, passerbys... Here are the photos ...

 

It was shot in the side yard of my house. I didn't see this nice grasshopper, but my cute Kei told me by saying " Ayah ada ayang (belalang)". 

It is the pumpkin garden in other side of my house..Almost every morning and afternoon I look at the garden to see if there is a good object for my photography hobby.

And here are the two cute little girls who often become my private model..KEI and KEVI..Both of them are really photogenic. And I think it is bit difficult to take their picture as they are very active babies..So I should set the camere into high speed shutter..

Aku bukan seorang penulis.

Aku hanyalah seseorang  yang secara langsung terlibat dalam hiruk pikuknya hidup,  dan  hanya ingin menuliskan apa yang aku lihat, apa yang aku pikirkan, apa yang aku dengar dan apa yang aku alami.

Lalu kenapa  ME, MY MOOD AND MY DAYS

Aku juga nggak tahu kenapa harus ME, MY MOOD AND MY DAYS.  So, do not ask me what I don’t know.

Well, may be  because I just want to write apa adanya, tanpa frame yang menghiasi dan tanpa majas yang membuat anda  meneteskan air mata atau tulisan yang membuat mata dan telinga menjadi merah..

Jangan cemooh aku karena hanya itu yang aku mampu,  Well, if it is not interesting for you, but at least for me.

I have made the best I can, so nikmati aja yang ada..